Sunday, 28 September 2014

Seasons of the Clock


Shooting stars though bright fall of the sky
Posh cars crash and get written off
Nice clothes eventually get to fade
And the good people mysteriously die young . . .
Strong wafts of nice perfume corrupts in the foul wind
Where beautiful flowers wither under a cruel sun
As constant ticking of the clock gives life to new.

Thursday, 25 September 2014

Deadly Conspiracy


 “You never really know someone.” Said a dark figure reflectively, smiling enigmatically at the pitch darkness in the tiny room.

A terribly fouled air hovered over the room. It was packed beyond capacity. The dark figure moved its back against the rough wall uneasily. It felt painfully sore, reminding him of the afternoon flogging by the beastly warders as they went about the routinal searches for contraband. His silhouette danced briskly on the dirty wall as he tried to find his sore famished bum a much comfortable position, in a place where comfort was a word long forgotten.

Through the heavily grilled ventilator cum window, a pair of eyes clouded in tears got elevated towards the starry night sky. A full moon resurfaced from behind a heavy mass of dark clouds. Streaks of moonlight filtered in through the grills and shone on a weary face, revealing its chiseled features. The eyes squirmed in a mild pain and a teardrop found the flee-infested floor.

Nodding sagaciously, the figure was slowly being drawn into believing that life was a meal of bitter aloes cooked in a pot of honey—a very strange cuisine indeed if you ask any chef. How can you have everything you ever wished for in a moment, and then have nothing at all in the next minute?

A man next to him, in his chloroformic slumber after a day of dehumanizing work in a quarry, tried to seek the comfort of the figure’s left shoulder, the reeking froth in the armpits not a deterrent enough to make him mind his distance. But he got more than he had haggled for—a violent shove off the shoulder whose protruding bones craved for independence from a dark gummy diseased skin. In retaliation, a mild crack sound betrayed the fact that a fist had been clenched as directed by a brain whose judgment had been clouded by social malaise blamed on the erosion of social norms and ethics which guided our forefathers to a harmonious coexistence.

With baited breath, reason slowly reasserted itself and the ugly weapon of jaw dislocation was lowered as the glue of animosity that held the five digits in a rigid union melted away. The figure was once a corpulent career banker, now behind bars because he took for granted the Sunday school lessons on honesty. Now he knew that contentment is a good thing, for it stands in the way of the senseless and soul-consuming desire to rake in millions you can’t afford to spend! If only he had been satisfied with his decent salary….

Thoughts of life after prison made him shudder. He thought of his wife and wondered if she had not been compromised by the seven years itch. As for his children, they probably had a new daddy by now. Opting to shut his eyes to his troubles, images of his big car and palatial house flashed in the darkness of his eyelids. Something clogged his throat and a loud sudden fart from a corner jerked his stream of consciousness. A disturbing snore followed, then a slap and a furious scratch that left a generous amount of grime beneath long crooked fingernails of a fellow inmate.

The figure’s sleepy eyes swept over the multitude of dark smelly bodies trying to solicit the comfort of rest from a surface that even a church mouse would proudly rebuff should man turn a friend and offer it a home. Prison was the strangest of places and had someone told him seven years ago that today he would be here, he would have arrogantly sworn on Saint Augustine that the person needed psychiatric care. As a free man, penitentiary was the last address he ever expected to be associated with him—a high-flying corporate honcho. But with this life, you really can’t tell of your next move, what with its inexplicable paradoxes that would probably take more than a lifetime of study to understand them?

On the corridor outside, the clanging of the jailer’s heavy boots could be heard, accompanied by the intimidating jingling of a bunch of old keys. He knew that in a jiffy, the grilled door would fly open and then the head count would start with every inmate squatting. He longed for the morning porridge to contain the anger of an army of worms threatening to rip his intestines into shreds of meatballs. As they queued for breakfast, memories of a sumptuous breakfast of steamy sweet coffee and hotdogs in his palatial home came racing through his balding head. The corners of his heavily mustachioed mouth stretched to accommodate a crooked spoon full of what should be a pig’s delight. 

“Surely it can’t be over,” a bespectacled man next to him complained of lack of sugar in the porridge. Three days ago, a truck of sugar had raced through the prison gates to deliver twenty bags of the precious commodity, unloaded by some of the prisoners. But the banker had been in jail long enough to know that asking some questions was considered treason by the jailer’s government. And treason was an offense punishable by blows, sticks and kicks. Through the corner of his eyes, he watched the man with big horn-rimmed glasses struggle with the sugarless porridge and smiled to himself. You know, prison isn’t everybody’s cup of tea—just how do you adjust from quaffing the finest wines and cigars to slurping sugarless white porridge and if lucky enough, pulling at an occasional stub of unfiltered cigarette from another man’s anus?  The man was a well known award-winning journalist, locked up for life for strangling a woman he had never met! But didn’t the medical autopsy report of the government pathologist clearly indicate that the deceased had a broken hyoid bone? And didn’t the police, beyond any apparent doubt, place him in the woman’s house at the time of the murder, never mind the two had never met?

The banker remembered his own case. Immediately after his sentence was handed down, like Njeng’a, he had shouted, “what about the big man?” but he was quickly led away after a hot slap across the face to a waiting prison van under water-tight security befitting only a head of state, in a country rocked by civilian and military insurrections. Being a highly sensational case, the cameras had flashed till he became literally blind. As the van sped away, he remembered like it was yesterday, his boss at the bank approaching him with a get-rich-quick proposal that he took hook, line and sinker. 

The National Reserve Bank had just lowered its base lending rate to the country’s commercial banks, making personal unsecured loans quite affordable to those with payslips. As customers came in droves to sign up for loans, the banker would promise to speed up the loan processing and elated, the gullible clients would leave him their contacts so that he could call them when the money was available in their accounts. Now, once a client showed up for withdrawal and tipped the banker, a hit squad strategically positioned across the street outside the bank, would receive a phone call with instructions to trail a described customer leaving the banking hall. A primary school teacher was once pulled out of a Matatu by the hit squad alleging he was a wanted dangerous carjacker. The other passengers counted their lucky stars and helped bundle the wailing teacher into a waiting saloon car. Ten minutes later, he was alone in a bush, stunned with his ears ringing from the hot slaps and two hundred thousand shillings poorer!

The banker’s case was lined up for appeal. But what he didn’t know was that in the next six months, he would let up the ghost in his cell as he waited for the feedback on his appeal from the high court. The official cause of death would be ‘SADS’—Sudden Adult Death Syndrome. However, the ugly secret truth would be that he was actually bludgeoned by a blunt object on the nape by a prison officer paid to do the job by the ‘big man,’ who believed in letting sleeping dogs lie. Feeling the appeal could open up a Pandora’s Box, he decided with finality to get rid of the thorn in his precious flesh.

A shoddy interment in the prison cemetery would then mark the banker’s end, but not before his bones got unearthed by inmates condemned to the same fate a few years later. Whenever the prison authority felt that one had overstayed his welcome to enjoy their coveted pit, disregarding a horde of potential tenants in wait—the uttermost expression of ungratefulness, they would joke—the inmates were called in to unceremoniously throw one out to scatter before the wind and get washed down the streets by a heavy downpour.

At the morning parade, the scary consequences of yielding to the temptation to find freedom other than that offered within the humiliating prison walls was made very clear. A single glance at the grim-faced man at the watchtower wielding a doom-breathing sub-machine gun left the banker wondering why the plump wardress was bothering herself yet she could benefit from saving her breath. Looking around the mammoth crowd of men who through their own sheer faults and others’, had thrown their lives into total disarray, he couldn’t figure out a single man daring enough to take a double dozen of bullets on his back should the cranium be missed. All of them appeared sickly as the whoosh of the cold morning air swept through their ragged uniforms, transmitting a nauseating stench of fermented sweat. The drone of the wardress’ speech made him sick to the stomach for it only dampened his iota of ever being free.

As the assembly dispersed, the banker couldn’t help but wonder if it was worth the trouble to tempt fate by trying to escape a maximum security prison, yet chances were very high that you could end up biting more than you could actually chew. You could escape, yes, but to the next world!

One by one, once men of integrity in the society, sixteen inmates—mostly barefooted with the lucky ones wearing a pair of then worn out mismatched slippers, brought in by a visiting friend or relative and delivered to them after the warder on duty had pocketed something—were squeezed into a poorly ventilated backside of a rickety prison van and the door locked with a padlock that could have served better to safeguard the treasures in the Egyptian pyramids in Giza. Four warders sought the comfort of an alternative automobile since who enjoys the perfume of unwashed armpits, loins and worst, a mouth that parted ways with toothbrush and paste an eon ago?

The sun was still rising when the van sped past the creaking prison gates, its smooth pneumatic tyres groaning under the overload. An equally dilapidated sedan soon followed suit, ugly muzzles of four G3 guns pointing out of its windows.

Inside the van, everybody was clearly lost in thoughts, apparently mourning over a paradise lost through a miscalculated step while trudging the dreaded path of law. Some were renowned academicians and others thieving men of the cloth. But most were simply kleptomaniacs and thus seasoned jailbirds who felt at home in the correction institution. The banker even knew of a man who had swore never to leave the confines of prison because everything was free and you didn’t have to worry about where to get your next meal!

As the van screeched to a halt, the banker sighed heavily, then buried his clean-shaven head in his rough palms covered with scars and scabs as he waited for the door to swing open. It had been a bumpy and torturous journey on a cushionless metal bench. His chest whizzed and he recalled that he had left behind the painkillers that were to take care of the pain of his lung-ripping dry cough. There won’t be a break till four in the evening. If the chest pains and the cough persisted for a fortnight, he thought, his chances of living would be next to nil. But the nurse at the dispensary had said it was nothing to stop him working in the quarry and recommended him fit for hard labour.

Alighting from the van, deep inside him, he regretted the imminent fact that he would die in prison unless the head of state came to his rescue through the presidential amnesty. Thoughts of being thrown into a ditch and then being rained on with clods of soil as if to punish the dead body, followed by exhumation as soon as a new tenant availed himself made him realize why a dog is always referred to as man’s best friend. He missed his own dog, knowing that if it were possible to have it around when he breathed his last, he could rest in eternal peace, a tear having been shed for a fallen gallant master and the grave always being watched over—an absolute honour for the dead.

Friday, 19 September 2014

No Country for Young Men



Joseph hit the sidewalk and proceeded straight on for a few meters before suddenly turning left and scurrying across the busy highway at a zebra crossing.

The sweltering sun had everything that moved cursing. It was a quarter to ten o’clock on a Wednesday morning. Plastic bags flew as they pleased and some got entangled on aerial electricity wires and others on the vandalized telephone wires that now served the purpose of cloth lines in various city homes.

Rushing to the city railway station’s booking office to pick his luggage, he thanked himself for having conceded to the idea of early booking. Had he not gone that way, no doubt he could have been terribly inconvenienced as were the men and women at the station, and from whose mouths emanated a barrage of insults for the ticket clerks who the snaking queue notwithstanding, occasionally took their sweet time off their desks to chat with a passing by village mate or tribesman and have an unnecessary snack bite.

At some point in the overcrowded train where grown up men and women secretly fouled the air, a heated argument ensued between two young men and had it not been for other passengers to intervene, they surely would have come to blows. The year was 1991 and the radicals for change on the country’s political chessboard had began though reluctantly, to show their teeth and willingness to bite. The apple of discord between the two men emanated from the impending general elections.

Apparently, both worked for rival politicians as footsoldiers and had gone for each other’s jugular immediately they sighted each other. Not the type to walk into a gunfight with a penknife,  Joseph sat savouring every mouthful of a bottle of soda he had brought along for the long journey to yet another job interview out of town. Marvels of Mother Nature rushed by as the wagons rolled awkwardly over the rusty ninety year old railway into a dark tunnel. He remembered his last interview and how sour it had gone after the interviewer—a dark stocky man and rotund like a yam grown on sewage—blatantly asked him what does a man do with a fellow man’s bottom! He got the message and left in a huff.

He remembered how one of his friends had been chased away from an army recruitment exercise even though he was the most qualified of all the youths who turned up to try their luck. The recruiting officers had cited a crooked tooth as the reason for shattering a young man’s dreams. But in reality, the unfortunate young man was just too poor to buy himself a government job he was more than qualified to execute.

Recently in the media, there had been an incident where a young man presented himself before a police station and requested to be jailed because he was educated yet dirt poor and could barely afford a meal. If anything, he was state’s liability and in jail, he was sure of a meal, however lousy. 

But just where did we go wrong? Many vouched for education for poverty eradication but was it really working? Was it true that education had failed the country and by extension the continent of Africa? Inasmuch as everyone wanted to deny it and feign ignorance, it was right there, in front of all eyes to see that the streets were prowling with exasperated and desperate graduates, willing to do anything to be useful to themselves and look successful to a society that glorifies wealth—ill gotten or genuine.

Crime was at an unacceptable level in the country. Going out in the morning and coming back in the evening in one piece to your family was not guaranteed. What with all the knife-wielding young thugs in the streets who couldn’t hesitate to cut open your throat as they relieve you of your hard-earned valuables? With most young people obsessed with ‘celebrities’—sometimes people of questionable character—who were only eager to show off their expensive fleet of cars but less interested in talking about how they make their money, it was not very hard to see what was ailing the society.

Things were just bad. Police guns had fodder glut and a priest was quoted saying that soon, there shall be no country for young men. There was complete lack of synergy between the ruling political class and the majority youthful citizenry because of a generational gap that made it impossible for it to identify with the real issues of their time. And the worst part of it all was that you couldn’t vote the octogenarians out of power—they had, over the years of dispensing ignorance to the masses, gained an inexplicable thick skin of money to bribe their way through to the top.

What was the use in belting out blasphemous praise songs for politicians all the way to the secret ballot, if all you will ever get in return is a bribe that can barely fetch two bottles of a decent malt drink at the local pub? A vocal politician had recently escaped lynching by the skin of his teeth when he told a rally of youths that they cannot forever wait on the government to rescue them from poverty—it might be too engrossed in building a record-breaking skyscraper to notice them sink and perish. A month later, police were called into a palatial home in the capital, where they found the politician slouched in an Italian leather couch with a bullet hole in his head and a note written in stencil in his hand. His large television set was still transmitting life-like images from a VCR and the fan on the ceiling was still on a furious rotation. On the mahogany coffee table next to him, was a cold bottle of barely drank exotic beer and a cigar was still burning on a diamond-encrusted ash tray. Apparently, as usual, nobody saw anything.

Together with some other neighborhood youths, Joseph had once written a business plan and approached their member of parliament at a social function for a small loan to start them off, only to be roughed up by his handlers. The MP immediately got into his monster car which of course had to have dark tinted windows lest some disgruntled, unemployed hungry youth assassinates him and sped off, leaving a cloud of dust behind. Someone had later on remarked bitterly that these politicians only look good in the media—you dare meet them face to face and you will surely know the stuff they are made of. 

His late mother had once told him that there are hundreds of doors and windows of opportunities around him—it was only a matter of him wanting to see them. Could she have been wrong? Where were these opportunities when nobody seemed interested in giving him a chance to find them? A couple of his friends had left the country, hoping to find a better life in the Diaspora. Some got lucky; others died in their struggle, and were flown back home in coffins to their shattered families. Those who tried local entrepreneurship soon got disillusioned when the local governments brought bulldozers to crush their small kiosks and lending financial institutions openly displayed a lack of interest in embracing them.

As the train wriggled and raced, Joseph wondered why there were so many scars blinding his and other youth’s time. The government, in total disregard of his unemployment status, was now on his neck, demanding that he repays his university loan which was attracting an outrageous penalty besides the interest for every month it went unpaid. His pastor had urged him to keep his faith in God; that one day things will look up. Sinking deeper into debt with every other sunrise, he now wished the pastor could have told him where to find this God.

But not everybody was complaining. He knew of several young people who lived well and yet, they were not known to be employed anywhere. But most of these people were extremely mean, and would rather die than share where to find this cash cow. He recalled an instance where a former classmate had bragged about his making ten thousand shillings daily, writing on the internet. But that discussion ended there as the well off guy became dodgy on divulging any further details and bid him a sudden goodbye, when Joseph became frank about his sorry situation and requested to be introduced to these online writing jobs he had heard so much about before.

Clearly, to a larger extent, the youths had proved their own worst enemy. Why be mean with good ideas that could also benefit another poor youth? What good does it make to brag to people living hard; people who at the edge of the precipice and doldrums of despondency might turn on you and make you yet another statistic of a violent crime?

Looking at his numerous certificates, Joseph felt tears sting his eyes—hidden tears of economic disability that equally drenched many others in the streets, resulting in quarrelsome souls of hunger, broken families and deserted homes. He remembered the last time he had visited his mother’s grave and saw his fading surname on the large weather-beaten crucifix. Many years back, he had been a child, but his eyes had not been. And now with the imminent possibility of failure, it pained him to come to grips with the fact that his mother could have died for absolutely nothing.

Disembarking from the train with his small luggage tightly held in his arms, Joseph felt optimistic again. Regardless of how tough and gruesome the fight was to get, he was determined to remain of good cheer and be a man. He knew that everybody had a destiny and a connector that leads to it. The magic moment that makes all the difference only comes from how well positioned and alert one is to meet and instantly recognize this connector. Actually, you never know who is watching. . . . Pain and suffering is only for a while, but as long as he prayed and tried, he shall overcome, or so he thought.



Thursday, 4 September 2014

One for Mitch



I don’t know where to begin
But I’ll try and begin here
Yours was a life so full of promise
A life so well designed for a child of privilege
But today—
Today I stand to testify to the futility of ambition
And to the ruefulness of this life
Always a step ahead of the pack
And now with a ready ticket for paradise
I pray you find peace along the way